Saturday, February 26, 2011
i fucking hate relationships. non of them are lastable or dependable. its either, he likes me and i dont. or i like him so very much and i dont know how he feels for me at all. like seriously,
im sick of this play thing we have here. i want you to show me, show me we're for real. not just say it. seriously mean it ! cause, you can do it like that but i cant. im falling way to fast and hard for you. and your too clueless to even notice it :'\ your so unpredictable. sometimes you melt my heart like its a block of ice on a burning fire or what shit. but sometimes, when you act like im not around or you just ignore me. like, we can seriously not talk to each other for a day if i dont find you. omg. i feel so !@#$% this is the first time, where i just kept quiet and let it be. it hurts like alot the first time we just got to know each other. people told me not to take you seriously, cause you werent taking me seriously. but i did the opposite of what people said. i fell in even deeper. thought that you might be serious for a change. and yes, you were. but then, your still talking about her. thinking about her. i can see it. and whenever i know your doing that, i feel like im just another distraction for you to forget about her. just another place to go, so you wont be alone. someone who just can keep you accompany. im trying really hard to not be that kind of girl where i make a big fuss and whatnot. but its just impossible. even if its for a short while, i've already said alot to you. opened up more then i should've had. running away from you now is just impossible. you wont text me when your online. you wont misscall me or message me like you used to. we dont have heart-to-heart talk so very often anymore. its like, your growing tired of me. i asked you, but you denied. sometimes questions that were replied with an ueasy tone made me felt like i shouldnt have asked you at all. like, what is the use of all of this ? maybe we should just stick to being play mates ? look for me only when your feeling alone ? look for me only when you need to forget about her ? i dont want that, i want you to feel exactly as how i am feeling right now. hahaha. paranoid much ? :')
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
i'mma gonna start bloggin again ! :D wanna know why ?
cause i nothing to do now ! LOL. i use to be a daily blogger. nowww, i feel so lazy to type. HAHA
so yeaah. nothing really happened today. CAAAUSE i no transport go out. haihhaih. k. nothing to write. GRR. mmm. i'll just start tomorrow. kbye :P
