this sucks.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Today is just another day where I rot at home alone ))':
Their all at the Padang Kebajikan, and I had to miss it. It only comes every 2 years! wtfuck much. I'm not feeling so well either. I am as white as a piece of paper. -.- i feel so goddamn emotional. I miss my friends. Y'kno one day at home is really a torture. I don't even know if i can go out during this holiday. GOSH. i hate my life. The principle told my auntie maybe they should tell my dad. CAUSE IT FOR THE BEST?? the only best thing about that is im gonna get killed. And i rather die earlier before he finds out. FUCK MAN! D: I really dont know what to do anymore. Sometimes i really wanna run away. haah! i know im being very pattern la, or dramatic. but who cares! I have no one to talk to except this blog D: no one reads it anyway.
I WANT TO GO OUT! Even if its just an hour. I want to go out! I want to watch a movie of whatso whatforth. fuck man )): I dont regret what i have done. I never do. Cause everybody makes a mistake. No one is perfect. and if my family or whoever doesnt understand that. Then their just an idiot with no emotion to spare.
Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed
There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
All she wants is to stop the pain
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray
Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.
))':
