"You say one thing
Yet you mean another
You try to be up front
While hiding beneath a cover

Why are you so selfish?
And why so ignorant?
What exactly does love mean to you
Or should I say, meant?

I've never known someone so fake
Someone who can't speak the truth
Someone so terribly insecure
Someone so cruel, someone like you

Why did you have to be like this
You started off quite fine
You would always say how much you care
I guess that was just another 'line'

I just sit around and remember
Of how much I used to enjoy your name
And how I so dearly loved
To play your little game

But now finally I know
That you aren't at all what I thought
And its a damn shame too,
Because I really liked you a lot"

When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope

Today is just another day where I rot at home alone ))':

Their all at the Padang Kebajikan, and I had to miss it. It only comes every 2 years! wtfuck much. I'm not feeling so well either. I am as white as a piece of paper. -.- i feel so goddamn emotional. I miss my friends. Y'kno one day at home is really a torture. I don't even know if i can go out during this holiday. GOSH. i hate my life. The principle told my auntie maybe they should tell my dad. CAUSE IT FOR THE BEST?? the only best thing about that is im gonna get killed. And i rather die earlier before he finds out. FUCK MAN! D: I really dont know what to do anymore. Sometimes i really wanna run away. haah! i know im being very pattern la, or dramatic. but who cares! I have no one to talk to except this blog D: no one reads it anyway.

I WANT TO GO OUT! Even if its just an hour. I want to go out! I want to watch a movie of whatso whatforth. fuck man )): I dont regret what i have done. I never do. Cause everybody makes a mistake. No one is perfect. and if my family or whoever doesnt understand that. Then their just an idiot with no emotion to spare.

FUCK! notice the date tomorrow? its 27! hell of a date that is .l. im not totally upset just because of that. mm, before i tell you the reason at the other post, here is a short poem for that dicklessjerkassholeheartbreakerplayerdimwit! :D

What were you thinking? I'd beg for you back,
like you're some noble king?
You're a dirty pig
Stupid fucking liar
I'd have done anything for you
Even walk the wire
So this is what you want,
Is she your every wish?
Ghetto little whore,
For a stupid little bitch
You deserve the worst
and even that's not enough
I hope your life gets hard
And more and more tough
You can think about me
And all that we had
Soon the tables will turn
And you'll be so sad
You blew it this time
Oh that's for sure
Liars never win
They never endure
You'll miss me I know
And when it's clear that you do
I'll laugh 'till it hurts
You're such a fool
So goodbye forever
Have a nice life
Won't be long now
Regret cuts like a knife"

she had been with me at my darkest hour, my closest friend and a sister i never had :'D

we had a great time talking for what seems to be a few minutes on the phone. i missed this alot. and im happy she forgave me, for what ever i have done wrong.

to me, she's everything. a friend that no one will ever have. i love her, my cousin to the damn fullest :D xxo!



sorry i haven't been blogging much lately. life sucks. i have lots to say. so, lets just start from 9/5/2010. 4.32pm to be excact.

on that day, someone who i sincerly love. OMGEE. i mean seriously, i love him with all my heart ;s broke up with me. i've been with him for 10 whole months. oh yeh! 10 months baby! you wanna know what he said? here it goes...

''gladys, i think i should let you go, i dont want to be enemy with you, if you hate me, you can, i will still loving you, your the best girl i ever had, i dont want to do this, but i have to.. if you dont mind, just being friend with me for this moment, it is for your own good, take care there, dont smoke and dont drink, i love.. goodbye''

the funny thing was, someone was breaking up with me, through text! and i couldn't stop crying. WEAK~ ;p

after 3 days. or maybe less then that.he went back with his 'SCANDEL' oh yeh! i forgot to mention, he played me for 5 months. then i caught him. he played me and then broke up with me again. how stupid of me! oookaaaay~ continuing with my story ;p i went to stalk him facebook and saw him wall that girl and called her agi. thehell with that. then again after 3 days, i saw a relationship status on that girls wall, but not mentioning with who. then after that, i found out that yes, it was my EX BOYFRIEND. who was with her! heeeh! and i was surprise that a lil time apart was his way of saying 'your getting replaced' fuck this shithole. blahblah. so this is all about HIM. that shithole, that guy, that that PLAYER! .l.



ANYWAAAAAAAY~ LI JUN RONG has replaced him :'D i can see him whenever i like! MWAAAHKZ. from enemies to friend, friends to bestfriend, and bestfriends to lovers. HAHA. i laaaove you ;p 16/5/2010

mm

omygoaaaad. i still have alot to say. but im really lazy. but i have no one to talk to ): UGH! life sucks. :'s

heyyo people.

Nizzers Hm is here. HEHE. apakan. so anyway, i know my galpren's blog here sucks, deal with it. ya get me? im not playing jokes here. HEHE. whatever. so lemme update her blog for her, okay baby? :)

she's feeling sick now, get well soon man! im here, no worries. sooner or later, you'll feel better. uhhh, she's single now. so boys, you may line up now :D

WAIT, i said BOYS. not PLAYBOYS. understood? :) i know you do, be kind to me.

i dont know what to say eh. :( im so lame in words.

eh you guy wanna know a story? it happened to me just this evening :O

i was walking. and walking. and walking. and keep on walking. then suddenly the sun shines towards me.


ofcourse you dont, i havent even tell you yet, duh.

CONTINUE!

and then.. IM SHINING! as if someone poured glitter on my whole body.